Please take a moment and lift me up in prayers. I have just gotten off the phone with one of the physican's assitants at my surgeon's office! My hubby was checking to see if my charger for the battery in my back would find the battery and begin to charge. It hasn't happened yet and the remote is showing that the battery is going down. Anyways, he said, Honey, your incision doesn't look good today, it didn't look like this yesterday. Girls, it is so swollen that you can tell it from the back of my pjs!! That is how far it is sticking out!!! It pushes my pj top out!!!! OK, I am scared! I called the dr on call and he told me to call the office in the morning to be seen. It is not painful, just really swollen but it is not draining!! I am so afraid that my body is rejecting the battery implant, you know that can happen! I know I am thinking the worse and it is just an infection. I am not running a fever and like I said, nothing is draining, Hubby says that it looks red around a few of the staples but that it is just really swollen and doesn't look good to him!!! So, I am going to call in the morning. Pray that it will be ok and I will be ok! I am just so tired of all of this you know!!! I just want to be well and normal again!! I am so tired of whiney about being in pain!!! I want me back! I want do to the things I used to, I want to be a good wife again!!! There is so much I can't do anymore and it isn't fair to my hubby at all, he did not ask for this life and me the way that I am now! He is soo good to me and spoils me all the time! I do not know what I would do without him. It has not always been a bed of roses and we have had our share of fights and troubles but we decided a long time ago ,29 years ago, that we were in this together! We got married young, I had just turned 17 and he had just turned 18!! We were parents a short 7 months later after we got married in Oct of 82. Our parents said we would not make it! But make it we did. My marriage has lasted longer than all 3 of my Mother's and my fil passed away a few days shy of their 39 wedding anniversary! So, we are good! We took our vows seriously, for better or worse, in sickness and in health! And boy, have I been sick!!! If you can live without it-I don't have it LOL except tonsils LOL \ok nervous rambling here! The more nervous I am the more I talk! Pray ladies pray! I will update when I know something tomorrow. I was suppose to get the staples out on Friday!